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Psalm 119:73-77

73 Your hands have made and fashioned me; give me understanding that I may learn your commandments. 74 Those who fear you shall see me and rejoice, because I have hoped in your word. 

75 I know, O LORD, that your rules are righteous, and that in faithfulness you have afflicted me. 76 Let your steadfast love comfort me according to your promise to your servant. 77 Let your mercy come to me, that I may live; for your law is my delight.

Delight is a wonderful way to live and love.

What is the Law of God? Every Word of God. By His Word all exists. Solar Systems, planets, gravity, oxygen. The Light of the world. One planet of green and blue in the midst of space. The Word of God.

Solomon said we had best give our Father God our praise because all circumstance is of God. The hand of woe and the hand of blessing come from Him.

When I was 40 years old, I did just like my great-grandfather and my grandmother Anita - I had  Pneumonia. Because we live in the age of Tamiflu - I lived and didn't have a year in an iron lung. And in jubilation - we took the Youth Ministry for the boys to a friend's house to clean up their homestead site from construction. I was in such a happy mood I worked for 6 hours and seriously hurt my upper back. Learning to do back exercises and eventually the injury healed in years down the road.

I knew from prior scans I had a lower back problem and this had just never surfaced. So this year, I knew my lower back had a pinched nerve.

And I began to swim in the cold 55' to find relief. I started walking after resting. None of the signs matched back surgery, but I was in a lot, a lot of pain. From Mid-January flu to May 18th - Then I woke up with Sciatica - screaming pain of childbirth proportions. And the next day. I rested looked at physical therapy and went on vacation for two weeks with family and friends. Having some alcohol, some fun, some sun, some beach, some eating out and A LOT of EXERCISE and Prayer - I felt amazingly better. I resolved to diet.

And I came home and laxed back. Within another week Sciatica was back in full tilt. This time I could not sit, could not sleep, could not rest. Everywhere Hurt. What had hurt May 18 was not in compare with mid June. Sciatica is not for sissies. Your rear end has 3 Major Muscle Groups - in Sciatica - your rear end is tired of supporting your back and might elect to jump off your body. Screaming in the morning was now part of a crying scenario.

My brother fell and had Sciatica for a year. It has to do with ruptured disks and nerve endings being squashed. My older friend, Mary, from Needlepoint, had Sciatica for 2 months and at age 80 said she was ready to go Home to Jesus should He want her. Mary had Sciatica for 2 months - the usual amount of time. And then Mary found cancer and went Home to Jesus. Mary was prepared like Martha.

Sciatica is not for sissies. Physical therapy is a must. I talked to a friend who said to make sure I took Melatonin. The Dog has a pinched nerve and the Vet said loose weight. I am swimming daily and losing some weight. It hurts to talk about Sciatica because if you are afraid a muscle is going to seize up - it will. That's part of Sciatica.

So one Saturday morning in June - I was home alone, Edward was out playing Disc Golf and my sons were river rafting. The thought of that much movement and exercise - I started out swimming at 5 minutes and increased that every day to 50 minutes or an hour after resting. 3 days I had an incredible Sciatica attack. Day 3 of the second round and I was not able to sleep. This was... just Bad. And I began to seriously cry. I sobbed. Sort of screamed. And I prayed out loud.



We have a huge bathroom window filled in with glass blocks. Light was gently coming in the Bathroom window.

 I looked all the way up. I looked up like the face of Jesus was on the ceiling. Why? I have no idea why. I prayed out loud to my Jesus Who Loves me.

 I said I know You have plans for me for a Hope and Future but right now sports and river rafting sound like going to the moon and back. I can't sleep. I can't be nice to people. I can't say nice things to people. I don't think I can stand this suffering and I really, really, really Need Your Help. Father God, Jesus - I can't do any good work and I'm worried for my soul in this level of pain. I have people to take care of but the pain is eating my body, my worries, my brain is fixated on the pain, my soul hears the words I say in anger to the people around me. I just don't know - how to do this. Please, Please forgive me for my harsh words and know every cell, thought, pain and the unbearable pain. Please have Mercy on me, Your Child. I so really, really, really need Your Mercy. Please.

And suddenly - the switch of pain hit off. My entire body was pain free.

I knew serious Jesus Work had been done.

I was standing with my head all the way up and no pain was happening. All that Saturday I was completely pain free. Did it come back? The Miracle held in the same way the Children of Israel walked to safety. Saturday was pain free and soon I needed to do my exercises and my diet to obtain being pain free. But the spasms like giving birth and sleepless nights  of being unable to move or roll over without lifting up first - were gone. The pain went from extreme to gone and back to needing work to a 6 to 7. Not 10.

Sciatica can be acute and last a year. Usually it's 8 weeks. Mine with two flair ups is just now fading.

The hand of woe. The hand of blessing. Today I was listening to Christian Radio - the woman said I love the Lord. He helps me brush past the hurtful or confusing parts of my day and focus on what is Good. I have Joy and Love and bloom because the Joy of the Lord is my strength.

Life is really like this.
Taking the circumstances like an Easter egg hunt - finding the Joy.

When our fence fell down - I wanted to put up a white fence instead of the old rotten one. We did. A sweet friend, a good Christian said to me, "Oh life, where you have to spend $700 on a fence repair." There are times he is Exactly Right. Like car repair - mostly all you can do is be grateful. But this time I painted this fence, put up 3 wooden Gazebo Bird Feeders and feel like I have a slice of Mount Vernon of Martha and George Washington. We employed an out of work friend to put up the fence. My son learned fencing - he helped. I did all the paint work and the gazebo bird feeders - we can see from our breakfast area.

When God makes a  path to make the way better
 - to creatively add to the circumstances of life -
 when God makes that path open to make...

For a number of years I've told myself it was time to swim. To be strengthened. I've always walked 2 miles or 3 every day. Combining the two is very, very beneficial. My clothes are fitting. It feels good to see this. My knees are shining from swimming and seeing the benefits. Exfoliation.

I have Lipomas from being exposed in childhood to a little girl who died of Hepatitis. My liver makes benign cysts.  This swimming was a discipline - I really needed. My arm had had multiple benign cysts and this is making my arm stronger.

Big Problems - Larger God. We can find comfort in dwelling in God.

We believe God. And we have to believe all things work together for good for those who love the Lord and work according to His Purpose.

To do this - we have to see events around us with eyes of faith. Finding the blessings - like finding Easter Eggs.






Father God,

We will all have a day where our Time is planned to go Home.  Your Beloved being covered in the grace of Jesus Christ, Wonderful and Auspicious God.

Father God, warm and tender our hearts as Jesus did on the Emmaus Road. Help us to be to You, like Daniel, who knew God is God. Help us not to live as Grumpy.

Let us remember again,

God is Good and Your Goodness. Real Goodness. Life is strong and filled with real Hope of God. The Strength of God - Peter Knew Jesus is God and Jesus is Words of Life. Eternal Life.

Real gratitude - realize we could be parted forever from the people we truly love - and remember again - strive as communicators in our insignificant conversations.

Let us truly, and really appreciate, the people we have in our hearts, let us encourage and build them up. Knowing we want our Beloved to feel loved. To be appreciated. We want to walk the path God has given us to know we did our best. Today, today, today we pleased Jesus.


Our lives continue forever - and yet, the gift of time teaches us - Today is our life and we really want empowerment making the most and best of our God Given treasures He Gives to us today. Filling our tomorrow is filled with joy. Knowing His pleasure we worked for Wonderful Jesus. Father God embolden and empower - helping us - to be love and encouragement to the ones we Love and the people You have Given us.

Abba,  Thank You for Edward's health.

Thank You for my children. Living and alive in Heaven. Thank You for our home and the people You have Lovingly, Lovingly given me. I appreciate Your steadfast love so I don't run down the hallway and give a swift kick or verbal punch .I am grateful for the Forgiveness my people, from You, have given me. I am grateful Your mercies renew and Your Mercies are diligently given in my life.



Hosea 14 Repentance to Bring Blessing

We will never again say ‘Our gods’
to what our own hands have made,
for in you the fatherless find compassion.”
4 “I will heal their waywardness
and love them freely,
for my anger has turned away from them.
5 I will be like the dew to Israel;
he will blossom like a lily.

Like a cedar of Lebanon
he will send down his roots;
6 his young shoots will grow.
His splendor will be like an olive tree,
his fragrance like a cedar of Lebanon.


What is our Father God? Tender mercy and renewed Strength of hands and heart and tender Love.

Oh, the places He would go. You uphold Life by Your Word. A Beautiful Promise and Sure Truth. Life Forevermore in Jesus the Only Son of God. God is Truth.

Praying for Jackson, Wayne, my sons camping, ear health.

Jesus our Wonderful. Amen in Jesus Amen.

♔ Lord Jesus Saves! †