Mark 8:27-30 ~ You are the Christ

Please look carefully at the altar, all the people are coming to the Lord! The majesty, the love and the awe in the people for their LORD.


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Let Everything That Hath Breath

Mark 8:27-29

²⁷ And Jesus went on with his disciples to the villages of Caesarea Philippi. And on the way he asked his disciples, “Who do people say that I am?” ²⁸ And they told him, “John the Baptist; and others say, Elijah; and others, one of the prophets.” ²⁹ And he asked them, “But who do you say that I am?” Peter answered him, “You are the Christ.”

Didn't we, as church goers, grow up thinking Peter got to be the first Pope because he arrived at the answer first. Ta da. Then as we study the Scriptures, we see John 1...

John 1:35-42

³⁵ The next day again John was standing with two of his disciples, ³⁶ and he looked at Jesus as he walked by and said, “Behold, the Lamb of God!” ³⁷ The two disciples heard him say this, and they followed Jesus. ³⁸ Jesus turned and saw them following and said to them, “What are you seeking?” And they said to him, “Rabbi” (which means Teacher), “where are you staying?” ³⁹ He said to them, “Come and you will see.” So they came and saw where he was staying, and they stayed with him that day, for it was about the tenth hour. ⁴⁰ One of the two who heard John speak and followed Jesus was Andrew, Simon Peter's brother. ⁴¹ He first found his own brother Simon and said to him, “We have found the Messiah” (which means Christ). ⁴² He brought him to Jesus. Jesus looked at him and said, “You are Simon the son of John. You shall be called Cephas” (which means Peter).

Cephas heard from his brother (Andrew), who heard from John the Baptist.

Colossians 4:6
Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer each person.

Well, being awkward - I don't know always how to do that. Maybe the LORD will grow this in me as Fruit. (Come on, Jesus!)

But actually this Proclamation of Jesus Christ as Lord, is important. For the same reason John the Baptist said, “After me comes he who is mightier than I, the strap of whose sandals I am not worthy to stoop down and untie. ⁸ I have baptized you with water, but he will baptize you with the Holy Spirit.”"

Jesus, who knows us better than we know ourselves. Jesus understands Peter's heart. We are Jesus' beloved, who believe.

Blessed are You, O LORD Most High, God the Almighty. You sent us your son, JESUS.

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1 Corinthians 7 ~ For the unbelieving husband is made holy because of his wife, and the unbelieving wife is made holy because of her husband

1 Corinthians 7 ~ For the unbelieving husband is made holy because of his wife, and the unbelieving wife is made holy because of her husband

2nd Blog Post for 3/2 Comfort and Suffering - the Scoop

Mark 8:33

But turning and seeing his disciples, he rebuked Peter and said, “Get behind me, Satan! For you are not setting your mind on the things of God, but on the things of man.”

And Jesus' life led to this.

Luke 23:24
And Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do." And they cast lots to divide his garments.

Why is there suffering. One of my favorite people on the planet used to say, "We know that if someone dies with cancer, it is because God is weak. Satan is so powerful in this world that God is pushed down." No, my brother (s and sisters) in Christ.

Psalm 24:1
The earth is the LORD’s and the fullness thereof, the world and those who dwell therein

- is still the Word of God. God does not lie and He does not change from day to day.

We live in a world where we sacrifice. Man, don't we. We have children and let strangers raise them in day care. We don't have time for a nourishing meal or we have many memories of a meal that was so stressful - that fast food is delicious. We don't have time for friends. We come home so wrung out that we all turn on the television. How great is television? We need more wholesome, holy things. People stay away because we aren't always nice to each other. Remember summer days and times in the 1970's and before? Time moved slowly. People gathered. People quilted and sewed. If you looked down your street, people did gather. Time was gentle. Is this sentimental clap trap? No. Look at the news. Now people obsess if they are doing enough work or if work is beneficial. People are jealous of others with time on their hands. Just as people are jealous with more items. Our grandparents bought their houses. Our great-grandparents were cared for in our homes (Lord help me with my parent!). Our parents bought our educations as a gift. We are sacrificing.

Look at the Scandinavian countries. Life is easier. Smaller homes, kids in government care very, very early. Less worry over health care. Yet they have given up freedom and a lot of their beliefs. Watered down. In worst case scenario, they are in Bad Shape if the Government goes Bad. In the United States, we believe in God and yet act badly. Things are not as crisp and clean as when we believed in faith to do right and God will care for us.

Faith and the amount of it effects all of us.

Do you remember in the Scriptures, a loan was supposed to be 7 years. Wouldn't we all be or have been happier with a house affordable in 7 years that wasn't in a woebegone neighborhood with hopelessness, danger and drugs? Why aren't we demanding Congress to order our lives in ways that help people instead of this spiral?

Is God truly weakened by this? I would say No. But God will give us enough rope in free will. So many miracles in the Scriptures are like the father crying out, "I believe, help my unbelief." Can't we all relate to that? We have to put our houses in order and give God glory. People are much more interested, ultimately, in God who gives mercy and blessings. Because God is Love. God says work and grow faith. Believe. Give it a leap.

Faith is a leap. We gave a car once to our Church. Now we have two kids with one car. We need to work on being financially generous to our Church, but funds are a financial diet at our house. Lean. Our financial structure is different than others.

(Have you ever thought about communion? Communion is a meal. It is the New Covenant. The importance of communion is this.... at a restaurant, we eat a meal and we are subjected to a conversation behind us. I've heard some that I Still Remember. Awful. Particularly one anniversary meal at Perry's ... the importance of Communion is - we are together. We wait for the person next in line to Receive. And pray for them. It's a symbol of God. And I believe Communion is God.)

So... suffering.... why does it occur. Is it a weakened God? A man is terminally ill (a friend's family). What could one act of God be in this? His daughter is to step up to the plate. To overcome her ingrained and complete self interest. Maybe she is to learn that she loves her dad more than herself, she is supposed to grow. To have to ask others to help her.

Helping others, when they ask, is an act of God. Helping others by forcing your will upon them, is not. Motivations are important and self defining. It builds a house.

Is love day care? Nursing homes? Does throwing money at someone help them? Withdraw support? Avoidance? Or is it time, talent and effort. Business decisions can sometimes be covered with practicality. Practicality is much more easy to rely upon. But they lead to day care and nursing homes. Less real care. If the sole goal in life is money, we have fragmented families and nights spent in front of the television. In the end, did it make us better people?

Jesus took death from us. He didn't take suffering. We have to grow in faith and see God in all things. Rejecting what is wrong. It comes with a cost. Jesus blazed the trail. Giving us His Holy Spirit. We grow in God when life is difficult, there isn't any praise, but we still believe, believe, believe we need to do as God would have us do.

Times are very hard at my house these days. Fear. Some Isolation. Difficult guarded conversations. Please pray for my family. We sure could use it.


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Mark 2:1-12 ~ it was reported that He was at home

Capernaum

Mark 2:1-12

David Cochran Audio, English Standard Version

And when he returned to Capernaum after some days, it was reported that he was at home. ² And many were gathered together, so that there was no more room, not even at the door. And he was preaching the word to them.

³ And they came, bringing to him a paralytic carried by four men. ⁴ And when they could not get near him because of the crowd, they removed the roof above him, and when they had made an opening, they let down the bed on which the paralytic lay.

⁵ And when Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, “Son, your sins are forgiven.” ⁶ Now some of the scribes were sitting there, questioning in their hearts, ⁷ “Why does this man speak like that? He is blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone?” ⁸ And immediately Jesus, perceiving in his spirit that they thus questioned within themselves, said to them, “Why do you question these things in your hearts? ⁹ Which is easier, to say to the paralytic, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Rise, take up your bed and walk’? ¹⁰ But that you may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins”—he said to the paralytic— ¹¹ “I say to you, rise, pick up your bed, and go home.” ¹² And he rose and immediately picked up his bed and went out before them all, so that they were all amazed and glorified God, saying, “We never saw anything like this!”

When we look at Scriptures, we can see in even small details, lovely things about Jesus. Jesus was comfortable and at home in His ministry. Jesus relied upon His Father; spent time praying. Jesus is Truth and Grace.

Psalm 50:23
The one who offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice glorifies me;
to one who orders his way rightly
I will show the salvation of God!”

I don't know about you, but people jumping up and down and screaming blaspheme and things of the devil, make me uncomfortable. I'd avoid it. Jesus, because He was comfortable, lived peacefully. Jesus is comfortable in His ministry. Jesus Lives. I mean if you could, wouldn't you get tremendous joy from giving acts of God? Jesus LIVED!!! And now it would be trite to say Jesus Lives? No. Look around you, we love imperfectly, but we love. The acts of mercy of God continue daily. Buck up people, act in love. Why? We believe, believe, believe. We know, we know, we know. Jesus LIVES!



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Mark 6 ~ heard

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Mark 6

David Cochran Audio, English Standard Version

He went away from there and came to his hometown, and his disciples followed him. ² And on the Sabbath he began to teach in the synagogue, and many who heard him were astonished, saying, “Where did this man get these things? What is the wisdom given to him? How are such mighty works done by his hands? ³ Is not this the carpenter, the son of Mary and brother of James and Joses and Judas and Simon? And are not his sisters here with us?” And they took offense at him. ⁴ And Jesus said to them, “A prophet is not without honor, except in his hometown and among his relatives and in his own household.” ⁵ And he could do no mighty work there, except that he laid his hands on a few sick people and healed them. ⁶ And he marveled because of their unbelief.

And he went about among the villages teaching.

⁷ And he called the twelve and began to send them out two by two, and gave them authority over the unclean spirits. ⁸ He charged them to take nothing for their journey except a staff—no bread, no bag, no money in their belts— ⁹ but to wear sandals and not put on two tunics. ¹⁰ And he said to them, “Whenever you enter a house, stay there until you depart from there. ¹¹ And if any place will not receive you and they will not listen to you, when you leave, shake off the dust that is on your feet as a testimony against them.” ¹² So they went out and proclaimed that people should repent. ¹³ And they cast out many demons and anointed with oil many who were sick and healed them.

¹⁴ King Herod heard of it, for Jesus' name had become known. Some said, “John the Baptist has been raised from the dead. That is why these miraculous powers are at work in him.” ¹⁵ But others said, “He is Elijah.” And others said, “He is a prophet, like one of the prophets of old.” ¹⁶ But when Herod heard of it, he said, “John, whom I beheaded, has been raised.” ¹⁷ For it was Herod who had sent and seized John and bound him in prison for the sake of Herodias, his brother Philip's wife, because he had married her. ¹⁸ For John had been saying to Herod, “It is not lawful for you to have your brother's wife.” ¹⁹ And Herodias had a grudge against him and wanted to put him to death. But she could not, ²⁰ for Herod feared John, knowing that he was a righteous and holy man, and he kept him safe. When he heard him, he was greatly perplexed, and yet he heard him gladly.

²¹ But an opportunity came when Herod on his birthday gave a banquet for his nobles and military commanders and the leading men of Galilee. ²² For when Herodias's daughter came in and danced, she pleased Herod and his guests. And the king said to the girl, “Ask me for whatever you wish, and I will give it to you.” ²³ And he vowed to her, “Whatever you ask me, I will give you, up to half of my kingdom.” ²⁴ And she went out and said to her mother, “For what should I ask?” And she said, “The head of John the Baptist.” ²⁵ And she came in immediately with haste to the king and asked, saying, “I want you to give me at once the head of John the Baptist on a platter.” ²⁶ And the king was exceedingly sorry, but because of his oaths and his guests he did not want to break his word to her. ²⁷ And immediately the king sent an executioner with orders to bring John's head. He went and beheaded him in the prison ²⁸ and brought his head on a platter and gave it to the girl, and the girl gave it to her mother. ²⁹ When his disciples heard of it, they came and took his body and laid it in a tomb.

³⁰ The apostles returned to Jesus and told him all that they had done and taught. ³¹ And he said to them, “Come away by yourselves to a desolate place and rest a while.” For many were coming and going, and they had no leisure even to eat. ³² And they went away in the boat to a desolate place by themselves. ³³ Now many saw them going and recognized them, and they ran there on foot from all the towns and got there ahead of them. ³⁴ When he went ashore he saw a great crowd, and he had compassion on them, because they were like sheep without a shepherd. And he began to teach them many things. ³⁵ And when it grew late, his disciples came to him and said, “This is a desolate place, and the hour is now late. ³⁶ Send them away to go into the surrounding countryside and villages and buy themselves something to eat.” ³⁷ But he answered them, “You give them something to eat.” And they said to him, “Shall we go and buy two hundred denarii worth of bread and give it to them to eat?” ³⁸ And he said to them, “How many loaves do you have? Go and see.” And when they had found out, they said, “Five, and two fish.” ³⁹ Then he commanded them all to sit down in groups on the green grass. ⁴⁰ So they sat down in groups, by hundreds and by fifties. ⁴¹ And taking the five loaves and the two fish he looked up to heaven and said a blessing and broke the loaves and gave them to the disciples to set before the people. And he divided the two fish among them all. ⁴² And they all ate and were satisfied. ⁴³ And they took up twelve baskets full of broken pieces and of the fish. ⁴⁴ And those who ate the loaves were five thousand men.

⁴⁵ Immediately he made his disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, to Bethsaida, while he dismissed the crowd. ⁴⁶ And after he had taken leave of them, he went up on the mountain to pray. ⁴⁷ And when evening came, the boat was out on the sea, and he was alone on the land. ⁴⁸ And he saw that they were making headway painfully, for the wind was against them. And about the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. He meant to pass by them, ⁴⁹ but when they saw him walking on the sea they thought it was a ghost, and cried out, ⁵⁰ for they all saw him and were terrified. But immediately he spoke to them and said, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.” ⁵¹ And he got into the boat with them, and the wind ceased. And they were utterly astounded, ⁵² for they did not understand about the loaves, but their hearts were hardened.

⁵³ When they had crossed over, they came to land at Gennesaret and moored to the shore. ⁵⁴ And when they got out of the boat, the people immediately recognized him ⁵⁵ and ran about the whole region and began to bring the sick people on their beds to wherever they heard he was. ⁵⁶ And wherever he came, in villages, cities, or countryside, they laid the sick in the marketplaces and implored him that they might touch even the fringe of his garment. And as many as touched it were made well.

The Scriptures - are vastly different than advertisements. Scriptures, read not for decades but Millenniums (Millenniums!!) - don't compliment the readers. How does that "sell'? Notice with me, verse 12. Repent. Who wants to hear that? Jesus does say exactly that. It would seem the people would have gone home.

Jesus didn't tell Herod, it's okay.

Guess that Jesus had something in Him, people could See. Jesus was caring for the people.

Blessed are You, Lord. Our Redeemer. Jesus the Christ. The Son of God.


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Psalm 128 ~ The Lord bless you from Zion, and may you see the prosperity of Jerusalem all the days of your life

Psalm 128

Blessed is everyone who fears the Lord,
who walks in his ways!
² You shall eat the fruit of the labor of your hands;
you shall be blessed, and it shall be well with you.

³ Your wife will be like a fruitful vine
within your house;
your children will be like olive shoots
around your table.
⁴ Behold, thus shall the man be blessed
who fears the Lord.

⁵ The Lord bless you from Zion!
May you see the prosperity of Jerusalem
all the days of your life!
⁶ May you see your children's children!
Peace be upon Israel!

Got a little story for you today, Ags (Texas A&M), so listen up.

I come from this family that is just funny. And for as long as I can remember, I've carried them in my heart with this tremendous joy and burden. I wondered in my early twenties that all this emotion wouldn't lead me to become an excellent writer. Some of this yearning comes from being an only child of, emotionally, only children. My parents bare the social burdens of being only children. But let me tell you, I had excellent Grandmothers because of it!

Well, my Grandmother used to talk and talk and talk about growing up a Wilson. She even told me Eric Clapton wrote a song about our area of the country. My grandmother was Excellent, she was Love to me. She sent me to college. I'm not the sharpest cookie in the box and I was Profoundly grateful for that time in my life. My life bloomed. I had attention from every part of my college - except my sorority - I just thought life was exceptionally fine.

Well, back to the family story. My great-grandfather came from a fine family, rumor has it we are descendants of the Signers of the Declaration of Independence. Wow. That can make a body proud. I know we were related to Daniel Boone through his daughter Matilda. And one of our family cousins, with a particularly fine Mississippi accent (whom I've always had this unusually strong like for him - he has a real place in my heart - I am excessively fond of him for his family looks and his accent reminding so strongly of my Grandmother - which is funny cause he's not all that fond of her!!) , told me we married into Senator Daniel Boone's family because we are such Excellent people. Wow.

So great-grandfather, Pop, was a bank teller and he wasn't financially all that he had hoped for. And one day, to make a little money, he started an insurance agency. And during the Depression, that insurance company Paid Off. It made him a fortune. By cheating his neighbors. So he became very secretive of his fortune. The children, only 1 of them knew it, lived a very prosperous life. But miserliness is a sin, and Pop didn't emotionally take care of 2 of his children and didn't even help them to get good employment. Pleasing the 1 child, very well. He had learned secretive ways to the burden and joy of his children.

And all of this was a Huge Secret. Creepy. Creepy. Creepy. The local and state government elected officials knew of it (cousins). And they all banded together to conspire that the 1 child would get all the money honey. I hope they were happy, bastards, because - this is true - those horrid people who helped this nasty conspiracy - none of those people could have a child. Sort of makes you think God was looking at this in distaste!

So the next generation had 2 sons and 2 daughters. One favorite daughter, my precious Grandmother and one favorite son - who decided he was entitled emotionally because he was favored and had the most brains in the family. That uncle once unkindly referred to my GRANDMOTHER as being as stupid, as stupid, as one of those William Faulkner's heroines. That novel was given to me and I cannot remember the title of that damn book. For the time being.

(Now I am going to throw in an interesting aside and say William Faulkner was my grandmother's neighbor. He was a Complete alcoholic. Mr. Faulkner, for some reason, liked my grandparent's fine Antebellum home and their fishing pool my grandfather Poss built (short for Possum because there is some nasty story about that no one will tell me about) and used to routinely go into their backyard in the night and pass out. My grandmother would have to go out in her robe and wake him. Mr. Faulkner wasn't particularly nice and he never would even speak to my grandmother. Which was even more peculiar because my dad (Mr. Meet and Greet, Social Lion) was friends with Mr. Faulkner's step-children. Aka, my dad and Malcolm used to get past foxed and get plowed under together. Daddy dated Marianne and was invited to the Faulkner house parties or party.... And I know a particularly fine ghost story about Rowan Oak too.)

So out of the 8 second generation children with theirs spouses (my Grandmother being one of them) none of them were very happy (maybe sharp tongued, iron disciplined Margaret). They all abandoned each other for reasons they didn't fully understand. Chosen son had stolen just about every dime. Except my very cool Uncle Tate was happy. And he was Cool. He drove a Carmengia. He was a Priest and so, unfortunately, it was a Carmengia station wagon. But he did drive it like a bat out of hell and wave all over the road as he talked, and talked, and talked. He was fun. He got himself out of the family sadness and mess because Tate loved Jesus. And Jesus loves Tate. I just had shining eyed admiration for Tate because he could manipulate my dad with a word. Joy. Joy. Joy.

So... my family was poor and had times of prosperity. But that family sadness and desertion pulled in a bad way. Tate died. Daddy ran off with my mom's evil, evil friend. She helped destroy my dad, who was headed that direction any way. Sadness, sadness, sadness. How I loved my dad. Love him. Love him.

I've even had real dreams of him in Heaven. And Grandmother too. With meaningful conversations.

So I became someone who didn't have many friends at all because I was in such sadness over my dad. My dad chose to take his own life. It was his choice. And I am never going to go that path. But the despair. People despise, avoid, ridicule, avoid and ignore people who grieve. They don't want that mess in their lives.

My family became oddly reconnected and disconnected again over my Grandmother's death and my dad's death. Dear God. The pain we could have avoided if we'd just had a conversation instead of lingering grudges. And I would have been so nice to all of them. So... what do I mean about oddly reconnected and disconnected? I am going to take the High Road here and be honest and gracious and say.... there is more to it than I am going to say about that. Privacy is important.

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Margaret decided to be lazy the day of my Grandmother's funeral. She didn't say to her son, it would be good if you could meet these people over the funeral. They'd appreciate it. Instead she was rather catty, it was probably guilt, but she served a cheap cake on paper plates and wanted us to see the graciousness of her home. She and Bob got into an argument over a family painting. So over this partial, hostile family reunion. Two things happened. I asked Bob, because we were poor and suffering, suffering, suffering, who owns all these vast stretches of property. And Bob got this amazing look on his face. Amazing. Hmmmmmmmmmmm. Bob decided he might want to know me a bit better. I was thrilled. Hey. Family. Bob started to visit us from time to time. And we had a BLAST. Bob paid the bills. Yay.

2nd, Margaret must have liked us a bit better because we were now speaking a "Bit". Yay. Family. And.... nothing seemed to come of it. Damn. Then Margaret's 2nd son died. We were sad for her because now her only relative, living near by, was gone. We sent flowers. And I think we hoped we would reconnect again. Nothing came of it. Damn.

More despair. I began in earnest to establish who I was in the LORD. Which means I careened around like a drunken sailor trying to get my bearings. Prone to Wander. And let me be very clear here. A cousin once told me that I was a hep cat. All talk and no action. Let me repeat. No action. Yes I am being vague for a reason. I joined a Christian Bible Study where no one was truthful. It was a bad deal. I was the most honestish. Add up lost fortune. Poor moral directions. Loose talk. And ... trouble brewed up. And kept brewing up since 1995.

My family is fragmented over my dad's own choice to die. My brother has guilt. My mom has guilt she has no guilt because she is angry, but she is guilty.... on and on. My family at large has guilt. Geez people. He chose it. It's not your fault. My cousin AC reacted Really Strangely. My God. Get away - you never even really liked me. Ignored me for years even when our family was happy together. Twit.

One cousin is really sour. I do forgive you. But leave me to lead my own life.

So... in the middle of this incredible muddle - you have Edward. Edward is Smart. Stupid. Just like me. Edward and I grew up together. We are married. We are siblings - not in the literal word. We are geeks. We are goodish looking and have great taste. We have enough materialism to repel and attract people. We are rich in goods and poor, poor in cash with a business in financial difficulty surrounded by family trouble. We are copiously plentiful in good deeds and good prayers. Dear LORD, I want Edward to quit saying the Lord's name in vain to curse us. We are shining Christians with Big flaws.

Edward is the best friend who helped when we were living on nothing. We used to work at our terrible, terrible little jobs and come home to the 2 bedroom home that our family and friends ridiculed us for. Surrounded by lavish wealth, we got heaps of disdain. We felt worthless. Acted with no self esteem. It was a cute, cute, cute little house. In the evenings after slave work, slave cubical/no window, slave wages - we would sit on the floor and Edward only wanted Mrs. Baird's white bread and gallon of milk. We'd sit next to each other and guess what Star Trek episode it was. And laugh. Life was working pretty okay until the trouble in 1995. Cousins can be a real pain in the ass. Banished. Treated badly.

Moved to The Woodlands and everything was Fan-fricking- tastic. Good Church!!! Good Pastor - he was like the best friend we ever had. Really. Edward and I had lunch with Allen 5 days a week and saw him 3 nights a week. Allen liked Edward so much. Finally a Church where people loved each other and honored God. A real community. A real family with fights, prejudices, feuds, forgiveness. Parties, people. Work, reward. Friends, trips to the city............ I lost weight. I looked so good this astonishing stranger came up to me in the Art Museum and asked me how old I was. 40 something. He said no way. I really looked young for my age? Bounder. So appealing. He was very personable at the Museum and seemed to want to just talk. But it was very awkward.

I never forgot. Except I forgot and then remembered.

Ran into him again at Neiman Marcus. I was buying a blue topaz. It wasn't a clean stone. My friend next to me was so excited over this devastating man in a light colored (camel?) sports jacket, that if she'd been a bunny she would have hopped. The sales associate was jealous. This man was..... All That.... and very blatantly sexual. Nope. Can't do that. It didn't end graciously. Thanks sales associate. Thanks awkward me. This man and my friend became friends later. Well she said so. As she was so rude, rude, rude to me happily being rude and gossiping. It didn't help my reputation a bit over those jealousies and that s.h.i.t. hit the fan 2 weeks after my infant daughter died. Gossip over an innocent me. It hurt me for two years.

So.

Temptation. Middle Age. Trouble. Damn Trouble. I hate it. So. It is what it is. Love. And indifference?

Then one day.... we slowly began to work our way back from child loss. And Edward made nice, nice Men friends. And I was lonely. I tagged along. I began to smile. And be happy. And later cry. And I met an unusually angry woman at two Baylor functions. So angry it made an impression.

And to our listening public. It was all talk. And smiles. And insults. Really. Edward was there.

How is it going to work out? Let me tell you. My part. I do love you. We are very similar and dissimilar. I love Edward. I do. He annoys me. But man, he is beginning to listen to me. I promised God I would take care of Edward. I am going to.

And. What will you decide? I don't know. But I do wish you would decide it in the following manner. No more fiber. And you know I am not taking about cabbage. I have a phone. If you are going to "be out of town" don't be talking about downtown.

Win. Lose. Draw. It will work out. I love the Lord. I think you do too in a casual manner. Do what is right. Decide what you think is right. Give me my privacy. Talk to me when you want to talk. Just be kind. I have been kind to you.

(This is Edward - You left your computer on this and I decided that since I am mentioned, I could say something to you. You are my best friend, my counselor, my person to lean on and complain to. I am proud of you for losing 18 pounds. I am proud of your goal to lose another 18 pounds because I know you can do it. You mean so much to me. ( I wonder how long it will take before she notices my comment).

(Hello Edward, honey. It took about 12 hours. Love you. A.L. )

The Lord, the Almighty bless us and watch over us. Guide us and Lead us. In Jesus' Holy name. Amen.




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When the wine ran out, the mother of Jesus said to him, “They have no wine.”

John 2:1-12

David Cochran Audio, English Standard Version

2 On the third day there was a wedding at Cana in Galilee, and the mother of Jesus was there. ² Jesus also was invited to the wedding with his disciples. ³ When the wine ran out, the mother of Jesus said to him, “They have no wine.” ⁴ And Jesus said to her, “Woman, what does this have to do with me? My hour has not yet come.” ⁵ His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.”

⁶ Now there were six stone water jars there for the Jewish rites of purification, each holding twenty or thirty gallons. ⁷ Jesus said to the servants, “Fill the jars with water.” And they filled them up to the brim. ⁸ And he said to them, “Now draw some out and take it to the master of the feast.” So they took it. ⁹ When the master of the feast tasted the water now become wine, and did not know where it came from (though the servants who had drawn the water knew), the master of the feast called the bridegroom ¹⁰ and said to him, “Everyone serves the good wine first, and when people have drunk freely, then the poor wine. But you have kept the good wine until now.” ¹¹ This, the first of his signs, Jesus did at Cana in Galilee, and manifested his glory. And his disciples believed in him.

¹² After this he went down to Capernaum, with his mother and his brothers^{[brothers and sisters]} and his disciples, and they stayed there for a few days.

What pleases God? When we expect Him to do something Good.

Recently we went to the Houston Art Museum. And I love the impressionism paintings. When we got to the art of the mid 18th century - it really has lost it's appeal. My mom's generation would like it. But this generation doesn't see hanging it in the living room. A whole lot of the paintings are saints. Man, those saint paintings are completely uninspiring. Dressed in long time ago costumes we don't wear. It looks like curtains. They are fat and jowl-y and look like they are suffering. Nothing to connect to. Dry.

And being interested in the Scriptures, it reminded me how part of the trouble with Scripture - reading with it's subtitles. "This is supposed to be what you think."

We are supposed to expect the Scriptures to be living and active. We are supposed to read it like a letter written to You.

We are told for so long - "this is the meaning of this Scripture" that we fail to see the glory for ourselves.

Does it grab you yet - Mary knew Jesus. She expected something Good from him. If you were going to tell a dry story - one you made up - why would you say Jesus was henpecked by his mom to get started. The Scriptures are telling us about Jesus.

"No, Mom, it's not what Abba/Daddy would want - it doesn't look like God's work - making wine."

And Mom still expects Jesus to do it. So Jesus gets stuck with the embarrassment of having His first sign be wine? No. Jesus tells us later He is about Joy. And having a Feast.

Jesus' First Sign Was Making Wine at a Wedding!!!



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Psalm 128 ~ your children will be like olive shoots around your table

Psalm 128

David Cochran Audio, English Standard Version

Blessed is everyone who fears the Lord,
who walks in his ways!
² You shall eat the fruit of the labor of your hands;
you shall be blessed, and it shall be well with you.

³ Your wife will be like a fruitful vine
within your house;
your children will be like olive shoots
around your table.
⁴ Behold, thus shall the man be blessed
who fears the Lord.

⁵ The Lord bless you from Zion!
May you see the prosperity of Jerusalem
all the days of your life!
⁶ May you see your children's children!
Peace be upon Israel!

This weekend, I was very fortunate to have both sons travel to spend time with me. One son complains a lot and I sometimes feel like he should have a mute button. Yet he is the one who laughs, talks, sings and if you are getting gasoline in a downtown area around a man flapping his arms and dancing, towards dark, he is the one who is going to get out of the car with you. He struggles with his faith - he did homeless work in Atlanta and a homeless man chased him and the whole group through a mall. He feels like a lot of Christian people aren't much fun and are judgmental. He has a new friend, and she is telling him about Jesus. I am Profoundly Grateful. Thank You, God.

My other son has a lot of artistic talent and draws a group of people around him. He usually has 3 or 4 good kids around him all the time. He has had two long time girlfriends. He is not as likely to talk as much, but he has amazing amounts of patience. My second son is still disappointed with God not giving infant Isabelle more time with us. He feels God ignores him and it is all rather pointless. He rarely gets angry - we say you'd have to hit him with a brick to make him angry. I think he was born with this, but this has been a real blessing to our family. He deals fairly and well with his brother; he calms all of us down when we get into our yelling moods. And we yell a lot. We are all fairly loud. But he is the guy who keeps the car safe when the homeless man is dancing outside!

I read a book called "Walking with Arthur" - it was one of those sweet, moving books that stays with you. It has been part of my prayer life since I read it - I pray for the people who are so relaxed, humble in their faith that they make the world a better place. For years, I've ended my prayers asking God to send us more people like this one to each of my loved ones.

And I am feeling blessed all around.

One thing I notice as I talk to them, we are all a work in progress. We depend upon the LORD. And prayer is always a needed component.

Thank You, Father God.



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The Call from Jesus Christ to Wake Up.

1 Timothy 1

1 Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by command of God our Savior and of Christ Jesus our hope,

² To Timothy, my true child in the faith:

Grace, mercy, and peace from God the Father and Christ Jesus our Lord.

³ As I urged you when I was going to Macedonia, remain at Ephesus so that you may charge certain persons not to teach any different doctrine, ⁴ nor to devote themselves to myths and endless genealogies, which promote speculations rather than the stewardship from God that is by faith. ⁵ The aim of our charge is love that issues from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith. ⁶ Certain persons, by swerving from these, have wandered away into vain discussion, ⁷ desiring to be teachers of the law, without understanding either what they are saying or the things about which they make confident assertions.

⁸ Now we know that the law is good, if one uses it lawfully, ⁹ understanding this, that the law is not laid down for the just but for the lawless and disobedient, for the ungodly and sinners, for the unholy and profane, for those who strike their fathers and mothers, for murderers, ¹⁰ the sexually immoral, men who practice homosexuality, enslavers, liars, perjurers, and whatever else is contrary to sound doctrine, ¹¹ in accordance with the gospel of the glory of the blessed God with which I have been entrusted.

Christ Jesus Came to Save Sinners

¹² I thank him who has given me strength, Christ Jesus our Lord, because he judged me faithful, appointing me to his service, ¹³ though formerly I was a blasphemer, persecutor, and insolent opponent. But I received mercy because I had acted ignorantly in unbelief, ¹⁴ and the grace of our Lord overflowed for me with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus. ¹⁵ The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost. ¹⁶ But I received mercy for this reason, that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display his perfect patience as an example to those who were to believe in him for eternal life. ¹⁷ To the King of the ages, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory forever and ever. Amen.

¹⁸ This charge I entrust to you, Timothy, my child, in accordance with the prophecies previously made about you, that by them you may wage the good warfare, ¹⁹ holding faith and a good conscience. By rejecting this, some have made shipwreck of their faith, ²⁰ among whom are Hymenaeus and Alexander, whom I have handed over to Satan that they may learn not to blaspheme.

Footnotes:

1. 1 Timothy 1:4 Or good order
2. 1 Timothy 1:10 That is, those who take someone captive in order to sell him into slavery
3. 1 Timothy 1:10 Or healthy
4. 1 Timothy 1:17 Greek to the ages of ages

There is a Movie called "Peggy Sue God Married" and it brings me Joy and Sorrow.

It expresses the deepest need we have to share ourselves. The absolute foul tangle we get into being ourselves. The barriers God gives us - that we loathe because we want to be God. The glories of life we LOVE and are so fleeting - partially because we all just suck. The joy in perfection, the horror that we want that more than all else - self glory.

"No more Jell-O on my plate today, Mom!"

Partial truths, half lies, evasions -just prevent us from living lives fully. The truth shouldn't be a stretch.

I am an oblivious visionary. What I want most in life is to glorify God, in Jesus Christ the Lord. What I want most in life is all the comfort and blessings I can get. What I want most is to walk side by side with some one I can tell it all to.

This goes beyond "genuine" and reaches into Truth. Then we spiral down into selfishness of power struggles and glory and self love. Materialism, enslavement, work, laziness. Name all the sins - they are all there.

What do we do when we get all we want - we want to discard what is old and boring. And maybe shed it comfortably. Or manipulate others into being second class to have more comfort. We want to tell others how to lead their lives. Even if we are scary or demanding or unusually persuasive. What do we do when we give all we have and still are unloved.... life goes on.

The only thing in life that is eternal and good is Ages of Ages.

Good Health. In our relationships with God. It is important and requires truth.

In seeking what is "healthy" we have to genuinely love. To care when we know others have suffered for years. To love what is unlovable. To know when we are distasteful of politics that we loathe - we really loathe something God has given us, how we feel about others and ourselves. If Church or Catholicism is distasteful - it is, or could be, a profound spiritual issue or disconnection.

Waiting for someone else to be Truthful? Be brave, yourself. No need to sneak up or around. Really. Take all the time you need, hide if you want. But what God wants is some simple honesty dealt up with face to face communication. God wants us to discover who we are really and to love Him.

Oblivion -

Evelyn Kelcher(Mom): Peggy, I don't mean to be intrusive, but are you having problems with Charlie?
Peggy Sue: A lot of things are confusing right now, Charlie is just one of them.
Evelyn Kelcher: Is Charlie pressuring you into doing things you don't think you should be doing?
Peggy Sue: What do you mean?
Evelyn Kelcher: Peggy, you know what a penis is? Stay away from it!

Peggy Sue: I'm an adult. I want to have fun. I want to go to Liverpool and discover the Beatles.

What causes oblivion? To have given for years, to have loved for years, to be a best friend and give and give and give and be unloved.

Come hell or high water, I serve the Lord. Not just the happy attitude sentimentality. Not see people for what they are or are not oblivion - but the "I love you."

I know my purpose - I exist to glorify God. Wake up.

Luke 7:25-27

What then did you go out to see? A man dressed in soft clothing? Behold, those who are dressed in splendid clothing and live in luxury are in kings' courts. ²⁶ What then did you go out to see? A prophet? Yes, I tell you, and more than a prophet. ²⁷ This is he of whom it is written,

“‘Behold, I send my messenger before your face,
who will prepare your way before you.’

What is your purpose. God knows. He cares. He loves. You know.

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John 17:9-19 ~ truth

John 17:9-19

David Cochran Audio, English Standard Version

⁹ I am praying for them. I am not praying for the world but for those whom you have given me, for they are yours. ¹⁰ All mine are yours, and yours are mine, and I am glorified in them. ¹¹ And I am no longer in the world, but they are in the world, and I am coming to you. Holy Father, keep them in your name, which you have given me, that they may be one, even as we are one.

¹² While I was with them, I kept them in your name, which you have given me. I have guarded them, and not one of them has been lost except the son of destruction, that the Scripture might be fulfilled.

¹³ But now I am coming to you, and these things I speak in the world, that they may have my joy fulfilled in themselves. ¹⁴ I have given them your word, and the world has hated them because they are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. ¹⁵ I do not ask that you take them out of the world, but that you keep them from the evil one. ¹⁶ They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. ¹⁷ Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth. ¹⁸ As you sent me into the world, so I have sent them into the world. ¹⁹ And for their sake I consecrate myself, that they also may be sanctified in truth.

John 5:17
Jesus answered them, “My Father is working until now, and I am working.”

I am going to start out with a funny thing to say. And it is: I spend a lot of time talking and making a Friend in High Places. Because. He loves me. And Love is what draws people.

And it would be difficult to discuss this passage as Jesus would. Jesus was talking to His Father and there is a whole lot of intimacy there. Jesus Knows How to Pray. When Jesus told us about prayer, He gave us the LORD's prayer. And Jesus didn't say pray only for the people God gives you.

For as much as I talk to the LORD. I know He must Know I think about myself A Lot. But this is what I know and where I live. And for all my plans and prayers, God still Loves me.

This is my small take on prayer. I have a lot of red light/arrow prayers. I have a lot of conversational prayer with God. Because I am in conversational prayer with God, I don't spend a lot of time kneeling. Probably a lot less time than I should. I do take off my shoes now and then.

So here is my take on prayer for others. It would be very saintly of me to say I pray for other people all the time. I don't. I have people I pray for daily. I pray for people when I think of them and think they need prayer. I will pray for them even when I think of something humorous that happened. And here is a kicker - I pray a flow chart prayer system after I add more personal conversation to the Lord's Prayer. Yes, Jesus told us not to be rote. But this is my organized prayer system . As I pray for the person I usually think of them with love and pray "Jesus, please." Because - He knows better than I do. And Salvation is the most important thing. Does this happen once daily - mostly. I find it pleases me. I hope it pleases the LORD. (There are a lot of "I"s used in this blog post....) I do know that when I walk through the open pearly gates - having lived the life God gave me - I think it's possible He could say, "You talk a lot. And let's talk about others now!"


The Good News is, Jesus is still here. He does the heavy lifting. Thank God.

John 5:17
Jesus answered them, “My Father is working until now, and I am working.”

Psalm 130
Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord!
² O Lord, hear my voice!
Let your ears be attentive
to the voice of my pleas for mercy!

³ If you, O Lord, should mark iniquities,
O Lord, who could stand?
⁴ But with you there is forgiveness,
that you may be feared.

⁵ I wait for the Lord, my soul waits,
and in his word I hope;
⁶ my soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen for the morning,
more than watchmen for the morning.

⁷ O Israel, hope in the Lord!
For with the Lord there is steadfast love,
and with him is plentiful redemption.
⁸ And he will redeem Israel
from all his iniquities.

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Luke 9:21-25 ~ For what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses or forfeits himself?

Luke 9:21-25

²¹ And he strictly charged and commanded them to tell this to no one,²² saying, “The Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and on the third day be raised.”

²³ And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. ²⁴ For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it. ²⁵ For what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses or forfeits himself?

We just tend to pass by this Scripture unless it is Easter or Ash Wednesday.
God is always interesting.
We see three things in just this small portion. 1. The command to be silent - not to tell. 3. Horrible suffering for the only one called GOOD. 2. And a reminder not to be lost in worldly standards because this is important.

Part One Jesus gave people Miracles. The type of miracles that Change Lives.
 And He did the unfathomable - He said, "Don't tell."

Why? For a very important reason. It was for them alone. Personally. Just the way Jesus took the deaf man aside. He took him away from the crowd...

Mark 7:33 After he took him aside, away from the crowd, Jesus put his fingers into the man's ears. Then he spit and touched the man's tongue.

Jesus did such a 'country' thing. Like spitting into His hand and shaking over a bargain. This is the same Savior who did so many amazing things.

 What is your favorite thing Jesus has done for you in Scriptures and in your life?

Jesus is for you. Personally. This is God and He is man and He is - yours. Knows you, loves you, created you to be you. Knows all the terrible junk that is just terrible.

 Which brings us to the Second Part  - don't be lost.
Be Saved in Jesus Christ.

Which we'll split into 2 a, 2 b, 2 c. On being lost.

2a Newbie) We read about Bob Dylon and even John Lennon went through this phase of being Christian. And it was a....phase. Because they felt like God was jumping all over them to spread their real joy in God's Love and publicly declare "I"M A CHRISTIAN!!" And then the whole world just jumped all over them, gave them intense sarcasm and generally created Fresh Hell. And come on... it was hell. Who would have wanted to stand in that line of fire? Believe me, I was the First Vice-President of a very affluent big-city, highfalutin (you can tell by the title there were several officers) Garden Club and there was a meeting people just fell over themselves laughing that someone would even stop to consider the phrase. "For what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses or forfeits himself?"

Because to the broader world, one jumps on the money. Wouldn't it make Jesus so sad for someone to have to be a baby fresh Christian and take that kind of fire when He Did the Suffering.

We dramatically lessen salvation when we don't give Jesus glory for His sacrifice. Just in our heart acknowledge JESUS did it all.

Timothy 3:6
He must not be a recent convert, or he may become puffed up with conceit and fall into the condemnation of the devil. One more example of God is Really for Us. Okay. Now 2b. Lukewarm? Revelation 3:6


So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth. Sounds.... bad to me. Therefore, we've established lukewarm isn't a good place. 2c. A mature believer. Subset i and ii. 2c Subset i. What is God asking of us in our day to day, regular lives? That surprisingly teaches us a lot.

Micah 6:8
He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God? (Love this really well.)


2c Subset ii Mature Christian - Living Large. Indent and Squiggle Line. Because what comes after subset? 2c Subset ii A Mature Christian - Living Large, but quite selfishly. Sticking just to the 'rules'.
Matthew 19


If you would enter life, keep the commandments.” ¹⁸ He said to him, “Which ones?” And Jesus said, “You shall not murder, You shall not commit adultery, You shall not steal, You shall not bear false witness, ¹⁹ Honor your father and mother, and, You shall love your neighbor as yourself.” 
2c Subset ii B Mature Christian - Living Large, but with empathy...


Matthew 19 ²⁰ The young man said to him, “All these I have kept. What do I still lack?” ²¹ Jesus said to him, “If you would be perfect, go, sell what you possess and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow me.” ²² When the young man heard this he went away sorrowful, for he had great possessions. ~~~ Bear in mind, we have already established lukewarm - isn't good. Where does that leave each of us on a day to day basis? We are all over the place. Fortunately, this is what God says:

Matthew 19
²⁵ When the disciples heard this, they were greatly astonished, saying, “Who then can be saved?” ²⁶ But Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

3. (Because this is the bottom line - how much God loves you. ) If you were the only person on the entire planet, and God knows we all are somewhat rotten, and sinful and selfish, - Jesus would still be there as our atonement. Jesus is for each person. Individually. Amazing Love - Jesus has for each of us. For you.

The point is -

what does it boil down to be a follower of Jesus Christ -

it is the question to ask ourselves each day. Regardless of Ash Wednesday or not. What would Jesus have me do.

Love the Lord with all my might. To love the people around us. 

Without that Love.... our lives are shallow.

God asks us to be who He specifically created us to be. He created us for His glory. Each day - to bring Him joy by believing Him, by honoring Him. It is why we are here.

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Job 19:23-27 ~ LIVES!

Job 19:23-27

“Oh that my words were written!
Oh that they were inscribed in a book!
²⁴ Oh that with an iron pen and lead
they were engraved in the rock forever!
²⁵ For I know that my Redeemer lives,
and at the last he will stand upon the earth
²⁶ And after my skin has been thus destroyed,
yet in my flesh I shall see God,
²⁷ whom I shall see for myself,
and my eyes shall behold, and not another.
My heart faints within me!

Part of being a Christian is seeing not just people as they are today, but we see them grow into God's promises. Gideon. Gideon was weak and became filled. God didn't take Gideon and dunk him by the heels in Super Grow Vitamin K. The fulfillment of promise. God allowing us God's time. One of life's greatest adventures is the road ahead. In Jesus Christ.

Edward and I have done Youth Ministry and seen some less than stellar results. Thud. But I'm not finished. God isn't finished. I'd love to tell you this teenager's name. With a smile and proud look. He almost isn't a teenager any more. This is a young man who was allowed to attend Youth Group only once. He calls me "Second Momma." Makes me feel 19 feet tall. Yet. His dad, our neighbor, feels prayer weakens people substantially. Critically. So our friend begged and his dad grudgingly said okay. As we returned home, his dad almost ran across the yard to scoop up this 8th grade young man. Had we contaminated him - his so very, really, precious son. Our friend's response was plaintive. "Dad, Dad, it's okay, we did that prayer thing and it was Nice." If he'd felt it was appropriate and people weren't watching - he would have said, "Please. Dad." Like a really young boy. This is a literal story. His dad's response was, "Come into the house Now." No more Youth Group. Again.

What is so great about this boy/man? The Brightness in him. Not the book smart genius. The willingness to question. To sit down, to read. To tinker in the quiet of being alone. This young man has dual skills - he is in an amazingly fine, selective University now. One that required diligence and almost prison like honing to get him in. I worry for him. What it will be like to be that finely trained dog who pivots on command. Where will the Brightness be.

One Summer day, I needed help to get a menu going for this Blog. What teenager is willing to help the Mom next door? With computer skills? I mean, please, these old people just don't "get it". So the computer gurus who do blogs sent me this unfathomable html list to create an extensive menu. Huh. What. What does that first sentence mean.... I spent two days - maybe more - in complete idiocy. Probably breathing thru my mouth. I got my son, who glanced at it - thanks, Son - and he said - get Brightness. Bingo. Not a bad idea.

So Brightness gets a phone call. And..... Brightness is like David. "Okay, I'll look at it." And he gets out of teenage late morning sleep and comes right over. I explain to Brightness in a complete rush, practically frothing, what the undecipherable letter says. Brightness says, "okkkkkaaaaaayyyyy." OMG. This is going to take forever. Brightness is looking at me like "she really is the Mom Next Door." Brightness takes a deep breath. He is beginning to look bored and annoyed. Dammit. We both sit there quietly for a moment. And Brightness says..... "Show me what you want this to look like. The end result." Ah. A Visionary. I Knew I always like this fine, fine boy. And I pull up the HopePointe Anglican Church website to show him their drop down menu. ("Available Now on Your Google Search Engine" - any time - day or night - wind, rain, sleet. Just. Go. to a Bible believing, Christ honoring Church every single Sabbath.)

So.... Owen............ looks at the beautiful website created by people who Love Jesus Christ and spent days working on a project to Honor Him..... and Owen..... his mouth drops open. Not the "I'm a stupid doo-doo bird look", but light fills his beautiful eyes. At this point, Owen literally is speechless. He points at the screen filled with Kirk Beaumont's beautiful photography of the Communal cup and host with the sunlight streaming all around them. And he just can't make a sound. I look with him. Owen is still pointing at the computer. I beam at him and say, "It is beautiful isn't it. Beautiful." And Owen says. "We can't create that. I'm going home. I'll be thinking about that letter." Thud.

Yet not really. The Brightness is still shining. Our Redeemer LIVES.

Philippians 4:6
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God




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